I know nothing is forever....but pain for me seems like it's eternal....I've come to realize it's just never gonna leave. A little or a lot....in the end....it's all I have.
I battle the heavy with myself & the pain it's insane
I fight cuz I gotta strive & help my rage
in my road of life I hit the speed bumps so hard
will there be eternal peace? it feels so far
nobody can cure me but numb my pain
cuz when I'm speaking music tongues
it relieves the brain
cuz I can't bare to reflect on the grisly images
& I truly love every 1 of my listeners
I'm trapped in a circle I can never re-shape
ongoing switches onto me with love & hate
pain has done more then touch my name
I fall to the floor knowing it won't go away
thinking how to kill it with the tears on my face
of course you don't get it you don't feel the same
why must I recieve all the bitterness of life?
so you can't blame me for my sickness inside
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please feel me, that's all I really want
cuz all I know is pain it only ends when I'm gone
I'ma soul in the fire that's rotting nonstop
this pain I take
what choice do I have anyway?
restless I break
& only fall apart until my last day
so few people in my life really listen or care
but even that I lose like a breeze in the air
& so many of you wonder why I change
because when I try to care for you, you don't anyway
I'm deconstructed of purity evolution of misery
frozen in a state of absolute ache
happiness is only a mirage that crushes me
why must I see everything falling down in front of me?
if you're there god I'm fighting please believe
but if you love your son why do you leave me to bleed?
you're nowhere in the life of Maniacal V
do you think I'm bad cuz I believe only what I see?
I'm not perfect I make mistakes but I try
a sinister mind but a heart so big inside
pain brings love, love brings pain
I'm no pessimist my truth is just here to stay
did I ask you to care? no
but did I ask you to listen? yes
I'm dying from the stress
every day passes by with a thought of surrender
cuz my fight goes nowhere that's why my hope is severed
if I didn't have music I wouldn't be alive
& I got no reason to breathe without it in my life
I'm not 1 to stay in the past it fallows me
I didn't choose to have so many bad memories
life is a slow death that's taking me down
I'm just tryna make the best of it before I finally drown
& at my grave when you're lookin down do me a favor
listen to the music I hope you understand & use it
my words are for those who want real
my words are for the victims cuz I know how you feel
my words are to keep you from becoming me
it's kinda hard to live in pain & not feel ugly
