We ask you, brothers, recognizes the work of you and introduce you in the Lord and admonish you; they prefer to have more of their work. Be at peace among themselves. We exhort you, dear brothers: Assigns handle the disorderly, comfort the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with everyone. See that none of the other evil for evil, but always chasing the good for each other and to all people. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all things: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus to you. Quench not the Spirit. Prophetic speech is not despised. Prove all things and the good. Flee the evil in every form. But he, the God of peace sanctify you through and through, intact and keep your spirit, with soul and body, blameless for the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. Faithful is He who calls you, he will do it. Brethren, pray for us. Greet all the brethren with a holy kiss. I conjure you in the Lord to let her read this letter before all the brothers. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you!

Want to give all my love, try to see the good in life. I'm disappointed when people argue And spread your bad mood. If you have to see how someone loses his footing, because only hatred ruled the world. Not every fate is in my hand, it will lead me to where I found the love. Will feel that there is no love on this earth. Wish and hope, that loves me a heart sincere. Then trust that this love will never be. A love that survives all the ups and downs. No feelings can be replaced easily, try to fill your heart again, is a thousand times worse, than hurt each other.

It was the 25th February 1995, the farewell party of a friend. It is then professionally moved to Munich. We were not too many guests, because we still wanted to cooperate then the DJ Bobo concert in Pahlazzo after Pahlen. I drank the whole evening just orange juice, finally, can also be fun without alcohol and have a good mood. Perhaps I simply pulled together only because I still lived under the roof of my mother and I had been just 17 years old. I had a boyfriend at the time before. A very good friend of mine, then we were not really friends, we could not mutually particularly suffer. He told me before the party, his twin brother would come, whom I did not know, but that changed this evening. We have moved to the celebration einmlal not a word to each other. I was sitting too far away from him, he was sitting somewhere at the back window on a chair and get out in front of the door on the sofa. There was hardly a chance to start a conversation with him. But I still remember very clearly that I had to constantly look at him. I probably tried similarities between my friend and his brother discovered. In my opinion they did not look very similar, his brother had a long beard and hair. My friend looked more refined. It was time to go to the disco, so we made ourselves as ready and went slowly by and by Everybody out the front door. When going out, we changed the first words of each other. Waiting outside the door on the driver, Michael began, the brother of my friend to run around and make some jokes, which I found totally lustif. He ran a few times before me and forth, until he suddenly stood before me. We laughed together, and looked deeply into his eyes, suddenly we kissed. It was such a nice feeling, it seemed so familiar. I could feel his warmth. Outside it was pretty cold, but I had such a good feeling wärmedes to keep him in my arms and kiss him. When my friend told sour, should we stop, please, I did the kiss on the eyes and smiled. I did not mind what he says and I have this beautiful moment not give up. Our driver arrived and we got into the car, I sat on his lap and we continued our kissing. I wish this moment would never end, but unfortunately was after 5 km of this dream end, Michael was at his destination, he did not come to concerts and so we went on without him. I found it really hard to say goodbye to him. I had to think about him all the time, I had the love struck at the heart. Love is an incredibly warm feeling in my heart, but it sometimes brings pain. A deadly pain, if not You can love what you love. Suddenly you stand between love and the people who believe that they know what seems to be good for us. In the end, only the people are happy to have made it that one has believed them. And we ourselves are trapped in a cage, for which there is no key anymore. Your faith in love can not live. All hopes are put to you. My mother was of the opinion that Michael was not the right deal for me and he was too old for me. Although I never could understand last, my father was 7 years older than she and her then partner, with whom she has been together 16 years, was all 17 years older. At the beginning I gave myself against the words of my mother, met secretly with his brother Michael. In the eyes Aigen I was happy the war was forgotten at home. It was always difficult for me to leave. The fear of losing him forever. The fear and the question was the last time? One day my mother was behind it and why it made me hot as hell, they forbade me to meet with him, otherwise I could go to my father, etc. If I can not see it already, I wanted to hear him anyway. The friend of my friend who went to Munich, also lived with us in the building. From it I called Michael. Unfortunately you can not trust everyone, and also came in to my mother. I did not actually make the move, it tore my heart, but I wrote a long letter to Michael

After some usual examining and a weekend lying between them, I should now on Monday, which 2 September 1993 is put under the knife. One night before the forthcoming operation, which should become a very much complicated, was admitted a young girl in my age, because of blind intestine pain. Also it should be still operated on the same day. It had much more fear before it, I however could it hardly wait for to become finally the pain loose. Good appearance is not so important to me, although me was clear, which I will have thereafter a large scar at the belly. Blemishes do not show the character of humans. At noon I was made finished then the operation. They turned my couch off right before the hall and the physician who can be operated asked me whether I would have no fear. I answered that in the negative and answered: I am gladly if I the stones am the matter, with one smile natural in the face. I drove myself then into the hall, put on to me the mask and I after few seconds had fallen asleep, it must approx. 13 o'clock have been. Against 15 o'clock after end of workday came my mother into the hospital over to see whether I everything well projected. It opened my room door, but found only an empty bed. Frightened she totally and asked directly in the sister room for me. Those called a professor, who communicated it, which one still operates me, those operation was very complicated. In the evening over about 9 o'clock I woke up, it was dark, it came 2 or 3 physicians to me and asked, how I would be. I felt good, asked when I again into my room come, since I assumed that, I in the waking up area would lie. The physician answered: Today no more! When the physicians went again, noticed I, which I am attached at a monitoring machine. I could not sleep the whole night over, since someone dreadfully geschrien has. With the morning round, I knew where I am. They said to me it a heavy interference were and you me actually still far one week here kept would like to the observation. The reason was which one me 4 1/2 hours operated and I was very strongly undercooled. I could convince you, which is not necessary it. When I arrived on my room, immediately my mother called her friend and said their which I the station is. I was on first attempt better and better, hour for hour. Somehow I do not have times more noticed which I was operated, except which I had usual scar pain or the hoses which in the belly. It was simply only a kind immobility. After 2 days am I for the first time again run, first times only from the toilet back. In few days I could run then already several times around the station rum. The other girl beside me had homesickness after its mother, it went it physically probably more badly like me, as it behaved. A nurse said that I was much worse things behind me and am happy and cheerful, in contrast to her. It was no wonder I'm so well off. I received many visitors, even from my classmates and my teacher from the professional college. They brought me school work and homework, so I can continue to learn. It was me letters and postcards sent to the hospital, including one from America by the daughter of my mother's friend who lives in Chicago. Everyone in the hospital were very nice to me. After 10 days, They took me the last tube from his stomach, so I was discharged after a total of 14 days.

Hello my dear friends. I let hear for a long time nothing of me. In this block I would like to begin over fates of the own life to write. As it is, if one stands at the abyss and as one attains again safe ground. Between life and death float. No hope give up. I believe that the true love, which leads soul back into the life, only to humans who one from hearts love, those want one never abandoned. Not times into death inside. Who really believes in the life and the love, each fate can project. One of it began before 17 years, I wanted to begin to decrease correctly. I visited the last year the elementary school. By a friend of my mother, I experienced from a physician of acupuncture accomplish. I visited the physician with it and began the treatment immediately. By the will for removing, I did even without any sweets, which I distributed also on the occasion of my birthday at the group of churches. Thus a good result already came out after a quarter year. Therefore I bought new clothes, it was Jean trousers, a Jean jacket and a fitting Jean shirt. But in the summer some changed suddenly. I got always frequent belly cramps, which fortunately do not mean graduation impaired or prevented, which I the beautiful sail trip take part in cannot. One assumed that, which I had by the weight decrease air in the belly. It would not have been for me a miracle, there I already very in the obligation in it was ever more kilograms to be removed. I drank nearly 6 litres tap water on the day, hardly ate, mostly just to salad nearly completely or something warm to noon, on bread I did without. The physician used up me caps which I during one meal-paid to me take should. One Sunday, few days before September, I took itself a pudding and took also the cap, but I suddenly got no more air. I asked to call my mother an emergency surgeon. When it arrived, it gave me a syringe and wanted with my mother alone to talk. It seemed that the belly cramps and that away remains for air for mental reasons is. My mother did not believe that and thus went I on the following day to a physician an ultrasonic accomplished. It recognized which I stones has. It did not communicate nevertheless it to my family doctor. The test results which were present with the family doctor spoke for itself, I had completely bad liver values and my mother said to him which the other physician saw. For this reason it transferred me immediately in the hospital.