You left me on the darkest night into a world so cold so white to get the biggest high almost made you equal with the sky leaving me there on the ground you didnt even say good bye didnt even utter a sound I held you in my arms when you cried I held you in my arms when you lied You never even gave me a chance but you awed me holding me in a trance as i stumbled threw the night looking for you like you were my light Years have flown by you came down from the sky knocking on my door your eyes averted to the floor We look alike you and I I laugh as I see you cry you shutter at how i have turned cold You auctioned my soul intell someone shouted sold But me and you were threw no matter that you are my mother no matter that im you daughter me and you we are threw no more darkest hours no more darkest nights.

I want to sit outside and soak up the sun I want to go out and have fun at night Spin around in a drunken madness oh how fun But i know it aint right I want to love with out my old fears I wanna hold someone without flenching It would be nice if someone else wiped away the tears But i know it aint right im just dreaming I want to walk outside the darkness I wanna laugh and share secret smiles Just like everyone else without the lonelyness But i know that aint right its all lies I want to have happy dreams I wanna be me Instead i dream of their horrible screams afraid to be me afraid to be free. But i know it aint right what can i say i am only me.

My mind screams no My heart says run My sanity doesnt know what to do It just keeps getting more fun Like riding on a merry go round after drinking a forty you dont know whats up and whats down laughing like you lost your sanity tell the ride comes to a stop and the pain all comes back alls you wanna do is drop maybe get back on track It doesnt seem real lost in an amber world hoping the anwer is at the bottom so you can deal tell you sober up and every one feels cold everyone hiding behind their mask Their smiles fake their words a lie alls they want to do is give you a task just makes you sick makes you want to die Instead your back on the mery go round Drinkin another forty tired of being pushed around Screaming into the nothingness of your sanity.