Breaking up is never easy! I had 8 wonderful years with my husband I went crazy and ran away I was depressed and felt like I wanted to die My husband tried to stop me My family told me I would regret it! It's not easy leaving all your friends behind Leavin Cali was the worst thing that ever happend to us. We came to a place where we had no friends but we did have our family. Sometimes that is just not enough. One of our good friends died. Was my husbands best friend he didn't think that hurt me but guess what he was my friend too and it left me crying alone in the dark. We stopped confidingin each other we for got to be there for one another. We started sleeping in different rooms I started having bad attachs (PANIC ATTACHS) wen't crazy as we were moving into our new apartment and told him "I don't Love you anymore" that was a lie we seperated for two months and in that two months I started to realize what I had done cause I got off all my meds, stopped smoking weed which was causing my attacks that were making me sick. I told my husband I wanted to work things out. He said that he was happy that he doesn't have to worry about me anymore and he told me that he doesn't want to have a family. that was the blow that has left me on the floor crying myself to sleep at night. He told me he wants a Divorce! Wow I have to let our love die and that's not easy! Will the pain ever go away? Can I love someone else? Who am I without Him?

If everyone could please pray for my family some one very special to my family passed away last night. I didn't know this cause i was bussy fighting my own cancer my uncle tex was diagnosed with lung cancer when i was diagnosed with lmphoma my mom didn't want me to worry so she didn't tell me that he was sick as well. Last night he lost his fight with lung cancer. so if you could please pray for my family i would greatly appriciate it.

Day after Day and Night after night Im stuck in this prison of lonelyness I feel like im screamin and noone is listening I cant let it get the best of me its hard to stay bussy when will this Cancer stop torturing my soul I know this lonelyness wont last forever and i know I'll make more friends one day I wish my friends would viste or would call me i call them and noone answers their phone or reture my phone calls what did i do to deserve this ? I m so sick and tired of this emotional roller coaster I know i gotta keep my head up cause one day I will get out of this house and i wont have so much time on my hands and this lonelyness will disapear poem by Bridgette