Maybe love aint for me cuz it seem like i always get hurt but now i really believe its me thats tha problem. I have so much baggage and im always playin tha victim. Aint no1 want me because of it. Im pretty stupid for thinkin that ppls is gonna like me and i get led to believe that a guy will accept me but in tha end, they end up gettin sick of me and leavin. i need to realize so much shit. And im in denial. I dont know what to do wit my life nemore. All dudes are players and liars and fakes. At lest the ones i deal wit. I kno this is stupid and dis is tha reason i didnt want a myspace. all the guys that supposedly want to be wit me have these fuckin hoes all posted up on their page as their top and then they say they want me, but im tha 1 that's not on their top. Its immature but it hurts. Maybe if i had my boobs and ass all out on myspace guys will pay attention to me and really want to be wit me. Maybe if i was a hoe more guys would talk to me. I dont kno wat else to do to prove im worth being put on sum1's top whether its on myspace or in their heart.

I found true love for the first time in my life. All tha othas that i thought i loved in tha past were not love at all, but simply the need of love in my life. I was soo happy with this guy and i thought he was too. I ignored all the things he did to hurt me, but then he just up and left. He started changing and i dont know what i did to chase him away. I dont know if maybe i wasnt pretty enough or maybe it was jus me as a whole. And ive tried so hard to get ova him but i cant and its to the point where i cant live without him, and since he doesnt want me, i dont to live at all. Its killin me. Everyguy i know has hurt me, and he swore he wudnt do that to me. But then he did ten times worst than wat the others did. But its crazy cuz i still want him. He wont talk to me, he wont try. All he says is watever and i wanna be with u, but then he turns it around and says that im the one dat doesnt want to be wit him. I wouldnt be sittin here at eight o clock in the morning writing this shit if i didnt want to be wit him. I dont know what to do nemore and this time i really think i mite hurt myself.

i JUS WANTED TO SEND SUM LOVE OUT 2 EVERYONE ON SOUNDCLICK, TO THE ASPIRING RAPPERS, ROCKERS, SINGERS, AND PPL WITH AMBITIONS NOT RECOGNIZED. U CAN DO ANYTHING WITH GOD BY UR SIDE AND DRIVE. I WISH YALL THA BEST OF LUCK.. AND TO PPL WHO HAV LOST HOPE IN RETRIEVING THAT CERTAIN GOAL. LOVE YALL. WISH ME LUCK IN GRADUATING. 2007

Thanx 4 everyone who has tried to help me out, but i need a miracle. ive been this way since i was born. I was a mistake from tha beginning. My problems are deeper than ppl think. i cant fix things now. i jus have to keep livin as a mistake, and jus hope for that miracle.