I am full of praise reports this fine day... First, I want to thank all of you that prayed for me and my health issues. I endured months of debilitating pain, unable to walk without assistance and GLORY TO GOD!!! have been delivered from that darkness!!!! Over a year ago I under went surgery to remove my paraformis muscles (yeah, I never heard of them either, ha!) anyway, after rehab, therapy, and God's awesome love, I have been WORKING!!! Yes, WORKING, not just walking... praise God, NO PAIN!!! And Art and I are getting back into the swing of things with our music, working on more songs WHOOO HOOO!!!!!! And I'm getting back to the swing of things on the internet!! I've missed so many of you!!!! For many MANY months (two years+) I was in so much pain. So many friends shared their music with me, and that music got me through many long nights. Twilla Paris the "Warrior is a Child" became my heart's song... ...Unafraid because His armor is the best But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest People say that I'm amazing Never face retreat But they don't see the enemies That lay me at His feet They don't know that I go running home when I fall down They don't know who picks me up when no one is around I drop my sword and and cry for just a while 'Cause deep inside this armor the warrior is a child Through the dark nights, I was like a child,running to Him in my pain, crying in the darkness and was DELIVERED!! GLORY TO GOD!!! Another praise report is that I will be working with Jeff at MMGI as a Booking Assistant!! How awesome is that???? I tell ya, the Lord is good!! So, thank you ALL for prayer and support during some of my darkest days. Art n Von are back, I'm BACK and rearing to serve the Lord with everything I have!!! WHOO HOOOO!!! GLORY!!!! Praise God with me!!!! FINALLY, I am 100%!! I'm even losing weight from the steriods, GLORY!!!! WHOO HOOO!!!! I'm BACKKKKKKK!!!!!! --- It's ALL GOOD!

Matthew 5:5 The Spirit–Controlled Person I have had a certain loved one on my mind for months. She is in so much pain, younger than I am, and so bitter against God ("why would God let her suffer like this? What has she done that was so bad, what kind of God would let her suffer so", and so on.....), that I am unable to penetrate her mindset. So again, I feed on the word for guidance, for reasoning to fell upon her ears. I have learned in my walk, (and Jesus said), that we can rise above the changes and circumstances that slaps us in the face. The fact is, these situations are responsible for causing us to pause, as well as contribute, to searching, fleeting questions that attempts to hover in our bellies like a sour taste trying to rise out of our mouths. It is so easy (as humans), to allow difficulties to make us bitter, angry and filled with self-pity, until our stomachs sour and we (over time and constant pounding from the world), possibly allow our mindset to become bitter, resentful and hostile toward life. As a child of God, a daughter of a King, I know that it is not circumstances and emotion, but our attitude that determines our joy, our thrill for another day, our gratefulness for another opportunity to take a bad situation and find good and purpose from it (them). Ah, the blessings of knowing that we can be (and are), a God-controlled, Spirit controlled individual. Jesus said, “Blessed are the gentle, for they shall inherit the earth" (Matt. 5:5 NASB). The King James reads, “Blessed are the meek . . .” The word for "meek" or "gentle" is one of the most beautiful and at the same time one of the most difficult words in the New Testament to translate. Most scholars point out there is little difference between "poor in spirit" in verse three and "meek" in verse five. The emphasis Jesus makes here is on man's relationship to God and his fellow man. The gentle, meek, humble people in verse five are the same ones viewed from a different perspective in verse three. The word Jesus used in verse 5, praeis, can hardly be distinguished from "poor." I do not want to confuse "meekness or gentleness" with weakness. (bear with me here). Our modern English word "meek" creates images of someone who is psychologically submissive, a "doormat". yet Jesus is trying to teach us that strength comes from submission and trust in God, our Father. The difference in my loved one and myself? I do not place my confidence in my own "power" because I am trusting in God with inner strength honed and made manifest [media] I have a relationship with God. It is our attitude that enables us to grow in faith and grace, to forgive and be forgiven that includes humility, accepting truth from others that we acknowledge ourselves. Ponder this: I can accept the fact that I am a sinner and confess it to God, but what is my attitude when you point out sin in my life? When do we become aware of our spiritual hunger? Is this the kind of humility that allows us to become aware of, to acknowledge our spiritual needs? Well, this "humility" comes with the proper attitude toward God. The gentle man knows his own ignorance, limitation and needs. It is freedom from all self-importance. Jesus described this attitude in Matthew 5:3-4 when He said, “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” The adjective "praus" means a gentle, humble considerate and courteous person. I look all of this up because I love my loved one, I am concerned about the different ways we bear our suffering, how we cope with chronic pain, I desire to help bring her peace and comfort in her suffering. (back to my point), a gentle humble considerate and courteous person describes balance between too much and too little balance between too much and too little anger.

So, the house is quiet, (which is a blessing), and you breathe a sigh of relief. Time completely alone is rare for you these days. So, you make yourself comfortable, pick up where you left off in the bible and sup a nice cool drink of water before relaxing in the Word. And THEN, it hits you. You have a lot to talk to God about in this quite time.. The pain, the depression that you constantly keep at bay. As you think about more and more obstacles you face, the prayer list grows longer, and you feel overwhelmed, You heart needs to talk to God about the huge burden you are to your family right now. It stays in the front of your mind because your husband is taking care of things that you should be doing, Or your husband is trying to find a second job because you cannot contribute to the household financially, at this time.. Your mind just trembles and pauses because out of nowhere you hear the distant cry of a hungry wolf at your door. You know this wolf wants to rob you of any snizzle of hope, joy, or courage. Oh the horror! The wolf is getting closer. Everything lines up in your mind, the Utility bills, insurance payments, car payments the mortgage payment, more doctors visits to pay for, medicines, and oh my goodness, FOOD!! And then your mind wanders to the unpaid medical bills, (with more will arrive in the mailbox soon) ), and there is so little money in the household because you are SICK, out of whack, down for the count. Out of the playing field. Yet quietly your heart tells you to rest beside green pastures, lay beside cool waters. Rest. Your heart beats quicker, thumping louder in the silence of the house, as you hear that mean old wolf sniffing around, trying to find a way in. A sense of panic rising as the growling of a wolf is trying to inflict it's ugly sound into your mind: "I'm gonna huff and puff, and BLOW EVERYTHING APART!!!!!" But inside of you, a shepherd is watching over His LAMB You sense of feeling of . calm and security. It feels like it comes out of nowhere, for suddenly you are Praising God, thanking Him for the bills and the food and the healing and the car payments, insurance. You are PRAISING GOD even though you have no real clue how everything is going to resolve, how everything is going to work out. Suddenly, it is JUST THERE. You know that whatever comes, you will face with dignity, courage, faith, hope and the words, "It's All Good" coming from your heart of hearts. You mean every word you speak because the Shepherd inside you is carrying you back to the flock. It came so quietly, almost stealth-like. This feeling of wellness in the heart and home of utter chaos. It fills the heart, it fills the mind and heart with encouraging promises. And you hear the most beautiful words floating in your soul: Deuteronomy 9:3 Therefore understand today that the LORD your God is He who goes over before you as a consuming fire. He will destroy them and bring them down before you; so you shall drive them out and destroy them quickly, as the LORD has said to you. Luke 17:21 nor will they say, ‘See here!’ or ‘See there!’ For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you.” Hebrews 6:19 This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil, Hebrews 10:23 Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. And more scriptures, words of wisdom fill the insides of your ears, and the wolf that tried to devour you is gone, and left in it's place is the sweetest assurance you have ever known. GOD'S PROMISES,HIS WORD, HIS LOVE, HIS CARE. Faith is stronger, and the wolf, is DEAD. WHEW!! PRAISE GOD I AM A CHILD OF THE KING! GLORY!!!