I used to follow you now I look right through you
now look who follows who and who's become what they want to be
I wish I could believe you no matter how I try
seems whatever I do I'm never getting through
so when it's gone tomorrow and your starting over
I'll be the one who's laughing out of my control
why can't I ever find some place to crawl inside
bury my head down deep in there's walls on every side
I don't know what I'm doing I feel I'm getting close
to something I'm not sure of why can't I just go
no one ever told me how hard it was to find
so now that I possessed it I'll never hide behind
the walls inside my mind see death on every side
you fucking trapped me why can't I be right
you think you know me but you don't understand
what my life is like and why I am myself
you dream of suffering well let me help you sleep
I know you don't believe me I can't control this
look at me look at what you've done to me the things you cannot be
the life you lead follows you run and hide you decide what people think of you
you'll never learn anything keep it down don't begin never was anything
if you try to hard you'll fuck it up and now your luck is running out
I don't feel a fucking thing I lost my sense on how to think
everything it bothers me where do I begin
help me drown my sorrows or let me rest in peace
become my enemy pick one of the three
can you see the road the one ahead of you
I don't know where I'm going or what I'm supposed to do
I see a wall in front of a hundred buried minds
no way to go around it I think I'm gonna die
why can't I be better somehow things have to change
and with the growing tension I feel I've come enslaved
to a godless nation the pressures blown steam
in half a second you won't feel any pain
if I'm lying then I'm dying
then the things I want will never become real
no one knows my reasons sometimes I don't know why
why I even try to mend these broken ties
some say your a waste some say your fake
think about your reasons know how you feed them
I've been waiting my entire life to be
something better than who I call me
why can't I just be forgotten
with all the holes left in my soul
