Lyrics
And this is how I wanted my life to be,
the money and the cars just livin the dream,
I gotta have it all this is what I need,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
Cause nothing that I want in this life is free,
Ia019m trapped in these streets I can hardly breathe,
Ia019ma make it out this is what I believe,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
im done with loving b*** es, f*** all the game. i'll getcha.
lets keep it real and tell the truth, f*** all the hopeless wishing.
this b*** could never change, shoulda seen it comin witcha,
she aint no wife, she just a hoe, wit no common senses.
you told me trust in you, you'll never break my heart,
you told me what to do, we barely had us started.
and then you ran away, came home and kissed my lips,
ran off again and stayed, came home and brought a kid.
f*** all the rivals, it aint worth it if you just a hoe.
i never needed this, really now, you should've known.
i told you first night, money over b*** es still,
you wanna break my heart? learn lesson. stiches heal.
i had a hard run, you had bright light.
i had a lost chance, you heard brian mcnight.
you danced the night away, i sat here in the dark,
waitin for the cab to bring you home before the rage sparked. (blah blah blah)
And this is how I wanted my life to be,
the money and the cars just livin the dream,
I gotta have it all this is what I need,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
Cause nothing that I want in this life is free,
Ia019m trapped in these streets I can hardly breathe,
Ia019ma make it out this is what I believe,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
its hard to deal with hate, its hard to live in lies,
its hard to be the one to trust the girl who fakes the cry.
its hard to take the blame, its hard to sleep at night,
its hard to turn my head when all i wanna do it die.
can feel it fade away. before i hate myself,
i wanna scream it out, and help me teach this girl how i dealt.
remember late nights? you came home drunk and high,
you feel asleep so easy, you're throat was at my knife.
so many times i could have had you where i wanted you.
deep beneath the floorboard, right to where to clung. you,
had to make harder, and you brought his ass to my place.
snuck him in my bed, and in my sheets he layed his face.
i never needed this, i never begged to God.
i never asked to broken down and in a knot.
yea i was on my knee, asked you to marry me,
f*** it i was stupid, and you took it all away with glee.
And this is how I wanted my life to be,
the money and the cars just livin the dream,
I gotta have it all this is what I need,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
Cause nothing that I want in this life is free,
Ia019m trapped in these streets I can hardly breathe,
Ia019ma make it out this is what I believe,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
so this is what its like to have the world on my back?
feelin like an animal, and on the brink to f*** in snap.
this b*** was playin me, and let me fall into her trap,
i couldnt get my footing, so i fell while you laughed.
you f*** in slut, how could you breathe this curse to me.
slowly now im feelin deadly, sh** now it occurs to me.
i never should have let you live it up and take it all,
f*** it all, im done and out. fake it now, ill let you fall.
im done with holdin hands, and faking smiles, sh** .
im done with holding back, and hiding in the back from friends.
you know you have it all, i gave it up to you,
i gave you all my dreams. you left me feeling used.
battered and scarred, alone and feelin so depressed,
you took all that you seen, so go ahead take the rest.
you took the dream from me, so take the vision from my chest,
ill take the first stab and even let you have the rest.
And this is how I wanted my life to be,
the money and the cars just livin the dream,
I gotta have it all this is what I need,
cause Ia019m lookin out for me.
Cause nothing that I want in this life is f
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