Name: Out Of My Mind
Duration: 2 min 48 s
Channel: Amy Caldwell
Description: By popular request here is another piano based song!This song just came out of me, one day in one sitting at the piano, my heart was hurt...heartache, where would songwriting be without it?

By popular request here is another piano based song!This song just came out of me, one day in one sitting at the piano, my heart was hurt...heartache, where would songwriting be without it?

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Amy Caldwell

Sometimes soft and melancholy, sometimes not..

I'm a a singer/songwriter originally from Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada. I've tinkered with many instruments but pretty much stick to piano and guitar. I've been a member here at Soundclick for about 20 years now, I have met some incredible people from all over the world. I have collaborated with a lot of different musicians in my time here, but most notably I have been working quite closely with Juri Rosenfeld aka Grand Jury. Juri is an utterly amazing composer, musician, arranger, producer from Finland. And I am thrilled to be working with him. Very often the lyricist for these songs is Dawn Sinclair an extremely talented and prolific writer from England. From time to time I have worked with other artists as well, most of whom I have met here on Soundclick. Another SC member, Tom Moore and I have worked closely together on many projects as well, including a 17 song Christmas CD. I absolutely love musical collaboration but have recently been trying to focus on completing some more of my own original compositions. Also check out the band Fractured Beauty, here on Soundclick another collaboration project featuring the talents of Bob Kingdon and others with a psychedelic vibe.

Song Info

Genre

Pop • Dance-Pop

Charts

Peak #130

Peak in subgenre #51

Author

Amy Caldwell

Rights

Amy Caldwell 1998

Uploaded

January 13, 2006

Track Files

MP3

MP3 3.9 MB • 128 kbps • 2:48

Story behind the song

This is a very emotional song for me and still is every time I hear it. It was an ending that was very difficult to deal with. It's bare and basic and I think I like it that way. Lyrically it sometimes feels rambling, maybe a bit awkward even, but it was like a stream of consciousness for me and I felt that it wouldn't be true to the song to change it too much (I'm like that with certain songs...they become like artifacts sometimes...)so like it or leave it, but here it is!

Lyrics

Well now it's finally over.
This in- between has fused to an end.
And I find myself longing for a beginning
once again.
It takes a long while to see through chiseled glass, to find a way back into myself
and it's so hard but I'll get there
all I've gotta do is kiss good bye to the past

And I wonder,
what might have been
but I've gotta give up,
gotta stop this pretending
I've gotta leave you and never look behind
I have to block your face 
out of my mind.

Well, there's this door inside of my head
and it won't open up and I can't get inside and I'm left here on my own
and I believe just beyond the solid hinges
ther's a need fulfilled so completely
I've dreamed a long while and now the remains are scattered like the leaves as they fly
and all along the pathway they have fallen on the earth 
so they'll soften the hard ground if I lie.

And I wonder what might have been 
but I've gotta give up, gotta stop this pretending
I've gotta leave you and never look behind
I have to block your face
out of my mind.

And I love you still
and I need you still.