17. The End I've done all I can to make pain disappear You wanna know about struggle? Then close your mouth & listen here. Put in the cage so, I can't turn the page. Can't anyone concede me for my ways & rage. Now death I don't fear 'cause I dropped every tear. Most the time I can't bare what I see in the mirror. Lost it all, now I fall, no more calls. & I just can't win this infinite brawl. Take me to the shadows take me to the clouds. But I can't have purity while I'm here I'm not allowed. As I burn, I continue to learn because this is just how my world turns. (Chorus) I don't know when, I don't know how. When it's gonna end, held down, unbound. Hate overthrows me no one to hold me. Love none shown me, pain still folds me. Waiting & fighting so much in this hole. I just want it to end, I just want it to go. Until then I'll try my hardest to numb the pain. Keep the pen flowing, keep the mic goin till that day. Now I live in the end without the best friend. As my feelings of hope & care painfully rend. You don't know this pain, but some can relate. By the time you try to pull me away, it'll be too late. Alone for years, I'm collecting dust. Let me wither & rot & suffer & rust. You know what I learned? There's just greed on this earth. Even when I'm generous I get hurt what's it worth? Why try & be the nice guy? It don't work. & the last thing I need around me is a heart teasing flirt. I feel I'm stuck forever won't a damn thing change? But I keep my guard strong, even if it's a waste, hey. You would only see it well in my ram shackled brain. Trying to keep my mind off this inner pain. Trying to find the best solutions, dealing with the trueness. My life never gets a way out of this pollution. Scars covering my soul, I can't take more of this fate. For bliss to find me I patiently wait. Rotted for years is my end far or near? I'm learning daily how many are scum watched by the 1-1-1. To be free & vanish agony I'd luv to know how. Every time I look to the upside it goes back down. How many times I tried to succeed but I'm spellbound. If I'm doomed in the afterlife I don't care 'cause I'm in hell now.