This is the second of two songs I wrote this year. While the first two verses are quite sad, there is a happy ending. Listen til the end to find out how my story ends and starts a new.
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Story behind the song
This song is basically my life story up until this moment. It highlights my youth from being abused by an alcoholic father to being bullied in school which eventually lead to me becoming a drug addict and spending some time in jail. While the first two verses are quite sad there is a positive ending to the story,
This will be the last song I write this year as I'd like to focus more on making beats. However if there is a demand and need for more songs like this I would gladly make more.
Thank you so much for checking out my music.
Leave a comment to let me know what you think!
Lyrics
Verse 1
Listen up close I have a story to tell
It's about my life and how I went through hell
when I was just a kid my dad beat me up
not cuz I was bad he just smacked me up
This is what life is like with an alcaholic
Sometimes it was good but for most it was problems
My first memory is dad hitting my mom
She cried as she held me trying to keep me calm
But it wasn't just at home where I got the abuse
At school I was bullied by various groups
I was picked on and bullied every day
I even got jumped and still remember their names
The teachers didn't understand they hated me to
That's one of the main reasons I dropped out of school
I don't hat one of them cuz Karma's a bitch
And she won't hesitate to leave you dead in a ditch
Chorus:
Child abuse, Alcoholism,
Mental Health, Drug Addiction
These are the things that I've been through
If I can make it through it so can you
Child Abuse, Alcoholism
Mental Health, Drug Addiction
These are the things that I've been through
I hope this song does some good for you
Verse 2:
Next part verse two yeah I started to stumble
Started poppin pills thinking it would ease all my troubles
But it didn't do that it increased all my struggles
And tore my life into pieces like a jigsaw puzzle
I was only just trying to ease the pain
But it only got worse I was a mental slave
A braindead junky with some messed up habits
You could catch me in a crack house chilling with addicts
Things only got worse I had to feed my addiction
Went to the hospital and got a prescription
Took that paper changed it up a bit
Next thing you know I have handcuffs on my wrist
Please God why me now I'm locked in a cage
Blaming everyone but me for all the pain
I'm angry at the world and I'm going insane
But it's all my fault I'm just not yet awake
Repeat Chorus
Verse 3:
I said in the first verse I went through hell
But it was all in my head I was under a spell
The truth is it was from inside of a cell
Started changing my perspective and getting well
Stopped blaming the past for my present actions
decided to live well and start chasing my passions
Because of my past I got so much stronger
Now I'm high on life the sky is no longer somber
Every life experience is just a test
All you really can do is give it your best
If you get screwed up and find yoursself in a mess
Learn the lesson get back up and try to progress
I know some of this can be hard to digest
But I lived it I assure you I can attest
You wont hear these words spoken in the press
Because they don't want you to have any success
Repeat chorus