Produced by Life and Death Productions. Recorded by Mike Indovina at The Audio District.
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Lyrics
[Verse 1]
It's my first Father's Day without you, my first as a father
My son won't know his grandpa, you won't see him as a toddler
I just wanna give him the connection that I missed as a kid
Be the best dad I can be, with nearness and secrets
I thought you were absent, we never mentally bonded
But you loved in your own way, gave up the life that you wanted
For us in a country you couldn't communicate in
You were a true DAD, with Devotion And Dedication
Worked hard with lil' pay to help raise a family of eight
With every penny you made, we were never empty, we ate
I owe my work ethic to you and mom, I wish you'd see now
I finally made it to the office, I know you'd be proud
And I know you loved me, even though it was hard to say
'Cause you had your helping hand and your kind heart displayed
You turned 63, a week later, you're in the ER
Easter Sunday, who woulda thought the next month would be hard?
[Chorus 1]
Like you, I'm a man of few words, got the same dry humour
You were makin' a joke after bein' told about the tumour
But without God changing me, I'm afraid of who I'd become
Growin' up, they would call me the little you like we're one
So I wonder if I'll see a bit of you in my son
We weren't close, but I blame myself for losin' my tongue
Now my hope is that the next time I'll see you's with God's Son
And we'll eternally share words fluently strung
[Verse 2]
You had plans to retire back home, just two years to go
Instead, your life came to a halt, they found a tumour that's grown
Hopin' it's benign, you found out as you've been dealin' with your eye
It's blockin' your esophagus, so you were wheeled to rectify
You couldn't eat, we assumed it'd be best choosin' a stent
Still couldn't eat, cancer grew and it spread, you're losin' your strength
You're no longer lively hooked up to all those IVs
At the same time as Raphy 'cause he wasn't feeding and feisty
You were strong, it hurt to see you suddenly get weak
Huggin' that pillow tight like the hugs you would give each
Person, in pain from movin' and eatin', even water's burnin'
Waitin' each day for it to turnaround, but it's not, it's wors'ning
You went from fastin' for tests to askin' for meds
On a diet of painkillers, but still graspin' your chest
25 years since we moved here, you're waitin' for a bone scan
It seemed like all your appointments kept bein' postponed, and
What we thought would be three days turned into three weeks
At least you made it home, hopin' you hear as we speak
You were supposed to be in and out, this wasn't the plan
We were gonna beat this like others, 'til they botched up your stent
[Chorus 1]
Like you, I'm a man of few words, got the same dry humour
You were makin' a joke after bein' told about the tumour
But without God changing me, I'm afraid of who I'd become
Growin' up, they would call me the little you like we're one
So I wonder if I'll see a bit of you in my son
We weren't close, but I blame myself for losin' my tongue
Now my hope is that the next time I'll see you's with God's Son
And we'll eternally share words fluently strung
[Verse 3]
Followin' your hearse down the road you drove me to and from work
A month from checking in, that's how fast your ruin occured
A month and week after your birthday, the day after Mama's
Cremated on your daughter's, but death is just a comma
There's no way to prepare for destruction as sudden
A month from your diagnosis, we're at your casket, huggin'
Met your fourth grandson right after your Mass and last unction
With pneumonia, blood in your lungs, and muscle mass shrunken
You held on to be the first to hold him in your arms
One day, I will tell him all that you built from a farm
Emotions were mixed, combined, met him in the nick of time
Next day, words started to slur, heartrate and oxygen not fine
Early that morning, after introducing you
It hit me like abuse that I may be losin' you
As my two-day-old newborn's at home cryin' for food
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