Another look at my struggles at not falling victim to the many snares of this world and my longing to have ultimate peace.
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Story behind the song
Actually I wrote it in high school when I was feeling extremely rejected and wanted to feel God's presence so bad cuz I was hurting. The thought of heaven brings me extreme peace.
Lyrics
If I could kiss the sky then I'd kiss it good-bye
Let the wind dry my eyes, it's too soon for me to die
Yet even so, inside, I feel as if my ship has sailed
leaving me behind, I can't help but weep and wail
I tell my friends I'm Job being tested by my pain
But my pain so quickly rains that the drops drive me insane
And they protest that it's a test, or at least my pastor did
I'm burnin in a furnace just to see if I give in
Even though I won't, I take my cross and cry inside
Cuz everyday I die, suffer pain and wonder why
Had my oldest brother Brady, just a taken away
at the age of 28, had me cryin from the pain
Had the father of my blood disown me at my birth
Because I came out brown, it was the beginning of my hurt
And when we got away from the beatings he gave
We moved to the S.O.V., I thank the Lord my mom was brave
Yet still all my atrocity had only begun
I'd soon be on my own while my years were young
With the body of a child and the burdens of a man
they took away my crutches and expected me to stand
I must admit my Lord that I'm doin ok
But the pain is here to stay, so I pray for better days
Bridge(2X)...
I pray for better days
I pray for better days
I pray for better days
I pray for better days
Chorus(2X)...
If I should die tonight, where would my soul go
I'm walking toward the light, yet the darkness shows
Half hearted I started to lift up my hands
Now I'm on demand for Your strength to help me stand
Cuz this ministry You've given me has got them demons temptin me
Your spirit is present in me, yet there's been times I broke my creed
It's your birthday they would say, take a hit one time
Then they passed the dime that would trigger my mind
I was high like a birdy, started bustin rhymes, just like the days of old, thought I heard You cry
F this, F that are the lyrics I'd spill
As you relived the crucifixion, for these things You were killed
And I felt like such a hypocrite, wonderin how You found me fit
It almost makes me wanna quit, what's the point, I'm not legit
Should I pray and repent when I know I'll sin again
Still You say You'll let me in, that You'll be my best friend
If it's true my arms are open to Your arms of love
Cuz I've had enough drama, bangin, drankin, and drugs
Can You make me shine brighter than I've ever seen
Polish all my dirt like Your name is Mr.Clean
Cuz my Lord if I was You then I'd send myself to hell
Yeah, I did a lot of climbin, but more often I just fell
You know I fell
Bridge...
You know I fell
You know I fell
You know I fell
Chorus(4X)...