Emotional song about my life. Everytime I hear this song, I feel the need to cry, thats the strength of the song.
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Lyrics
Sat my ass down and glanced outside
Thought about my past, but I resisted to cry
I thought about the times, when I wore a smile
When I had no worries, had a different style
I was worry free
I lived so happily
I had no cares, that I’d share, with the world’s debris
But now I see the mistake
And the risks I’d take
And the decisions I regret that I had made
I sit in wonder, if I could change things in my past
If I didn’t take those drugs, would of it all surpassed
Recognize these haunted memories, which remain to stay with me
All things I did back in town, would anybody see?
The agony, the pain
The loss, and the gain
The screaming in the rain
The drugs and the change
Has anybody noticed, that I’m a different dude?
Seeing Rodney stabbed, fixed my attitude
I remember all the things, I should try and forget
J breaking pills in my drink, don’t you think I would regret
Sipping that booze
And taking that loose
Being played with the fools
Disobeying the rules, uh huh
{Chorus} And that’s just the hard times
My hand in yours
Yours in mine
in the dark
in the fog
Yours and mine
we'd always find
but the fog
got thicker
the dark got darker
I reached out for you
but you were
hidden by
something so much thicker
Your smiles were washed
my tears were flown
The love You felt
No longer shown
Our laughs
our smiles
were no longer heard
Instead they were erased
Burried in deep
deep in black soiled dirt
so I walk down
this loney street
the smell
of this Fog
fog of Defeat
To dark to see
the potholes below
each step
fallen
into the underground Below
so I continue on walking
this street of Pain alone
No hand to be held
No smiles to be seen
Just the fog the dark
the holes and me
{Chorus}
I look down at these hands I remember the hard times
Sitting in emptiness writing about my dark crimes
Happiness wont fullfill me
Regret only thrills me
Waiting like everyone else for that strike to kill me
I’m helpless at the moment, I feel absolutely numb
All I can do is wait, for this high to be done
2 weeks later, I’m helpless and sick
Staring at the wall, Trying to think and sit
Got to get food, haven’t ate in 2 weeks
There’s a hole in my heart finding it hard to speak
Open my mouth just a whisper in the wind
Trying to cure myself like a crisper to the sinned
Nobody notices, nobody cares
Nobody’s aware of my recent scare and prayers
I’ll just wait for a sign at the bottom of the stairs
Wait as my emotions play musical chairs
{Chorus}