Bout my life and my reasons to live.. really emotional song talks bout all the shit ive went through and still gonna go through
dcoy
Lyrics
I was born in life here to pick up the missing pieces
And until now i cud strongly stand and state my thesis
Ever since the first date, i thought life was a piece of cake
But now im startin to learn that you have to give what you take
Trying to find someone to just hold on
Being critisized left and right by fam cuz of the same song
And livin life wrong i just want to put these talks on mute...
Its like im livin being judged if im ugly or cute
Rich or poor, skanks and whores, open and closed doors
And i wasnt throwing any sevens when i met a girl
Cuz ive been caught up in life's twists and twirls...
And i feel the need to hurl cuz im getting dizzy at this spinnin world
But it feels like i got chains tied across both my hips
And as i touch both my lips now i know what i miss
I wish i had some kind of bliss.. how much longer cud i go with this
I cud only endure and absorb so many hits..
Chorus
And I want to be..the bset that i could be and i want to know
If this is all i cud show.. and i want to go
And start to live life good.. and if i cant do this
I dont want to be misunderstood
And i want to be..something that i cannot be
But i want to no..if my troubles will still go
And i want to fight.. through all of these seasons
And if i cant live life.. than these are my reasons...
I feel as is my life is like a gutiar, every moment it keeps getting hit hard
In every sequence ever moment it portray's my reason's
At each time, im being judged on each rhyme
If i do sumtin good its a crime, my life is one bad time
And sometimes i cud be very sensitive
But thats how i was raised and how i live
Grown up by 2 females abandoned by one male
And i feel so useless as if my soul was on sale
And is this how God intended me to live
Should i stop pushing and usin the effort i give
Shud i just stop? Or keep on movin
I feel like the bad guy cuz i keep on losin
And i never thought joy would play the devils advocate
And givin reasons to the rebels whos having it
And i didnt expect snowflakes to bring me down
But im in a blizzard of many with feet glued to the ground
And i didnt think that living on the brink would make me sink
Its like all i see is falling on my face flat and no one in this world will have my back
Cuz what i used to have all just went up in smoke
All of my friends decided to smoke crack and live of dope
And all i cud hope is if they get a rope to pull out of their holes
And my reason for them is to take this roll
But i never recieive what i give and how do i live
And how to belive if all these people do is decieve
And im locked down feeling like my life is worthless
But is my reason's worth this wahts my purpose
I set out goals and dreams that i cant accomplish
Being my own best friend makes myself my accomplice
Ive been love struck and ever since my first love ive lost luck
Because trust was lost and my heart breaking was the cost
And im convinced this whole world's just a bunch of shit
Or i just dont have enough human.. i still have a lot to be proven
I dont no what im doin, or what path im taking
My hands are shaking, my knees are breaking
My mind is lost, wats my cost, wat else do i have to fite
My reason for livin is to make all shit wrong become right
Chorus
In this rough life of mine, i think i learned nows the time
To confess and show the rest of myself what i have left
From all of this motivation, from people who love and hatin
I live to see my mother smile, to grin for a long while
I live to see grown men cry, but not from my dad's eyes
I live to see small childen age, and flip scripts as i turn a page
I live to see the rest of this earth, i live to see my future son's birth
I live to raise and mature, i live fight and cure, i live to smile and cry
I live to die, i live for another chance, i live for another dance
One more with my first love, i live to fly above
Back to my 2nd father, and i wonder sometimes why do i bother
To now just how much farthe