A song about being afraid of the future.
A million possibilities exist within my head,
Pulling me in all directions,
Reflecting on everything done and said,
All successes and rejections,
Incomplete down to my very DNA,
Deep inside a missing link,
Pulled asunder and blindly lead astray,
Taught not to question or to think,
I’m scared, I’m petrified,
Ill prepared and horrified,
I’m broken, I’m gruff,
Misspoken, had enough,
I’m scared!
Rapid fire obstacles, gashing scars,
Baggage not left behind,
The puppet’s strings they do not travel far,
It’s my own subconscious mind,
Desperate to reach escape velocity,
Escape the gravity of myself,
Weighed down by animosity,
The past endangering my health,
I’m scared, I’m petrified,
Ill prepared and horrified,
I’m broken, I’m gruff,
Misspoken, had enough,
I’m scared!
Not letting go to inevitable departures,
Wishing things would stay the same,
I am not a different beat marcher,
Disabled, stuck and lame,
Scared to diverge from this trite path,
Latching on to old memories,
Fearing change and fearing wrath,
Close my eyes, don’t want to see.
I’m scared, I’m petrified,
Ill prepared and horrified,
I’m broken, I’m gruff,
Misspoken, had enough,
I’m defeated, I’ve lost,
Mistreated, double-crossed,
I’m finished, my nadir,
A diminished crusader,
I’m scared!