Beautiful Sadness My bearings on life are lost I can't seem to figure out the cost Of being happy, without fear But I turn again another year Without cause or reason to be here. I'm beginning to wonder why I'm alive My emotions stabbing me like a thousand knives Is this life worth it? To be here without place I feel the tears flowing down my face As I sit here pondering my world, My thoughts fall on a pearl, A perfect sphere, clear of sin White, for saints rising again My thoughts fall also on my friends These thoughts always chasing me around the bend Most of my friends aren't true, Lies and false promises fall with youth I need someone to tell me they will always be there I need someone that I can tell my deepest fears My thoughts again wander to other people. Why must people be so uncaring and cold? This "I don't care" shit is getting old. I just once want to meet someone like me. Me now. The way I always wanted to be. I find truth in despair, and I don't like it.

The deed is done, the love is gone, You really don't see what you did wrong. But all the things that you did right, Weren't enough to stop the fight, So now you're standing all alone. No one to talk to; no one's home. You start to think about the past, And then you see why it didn't last. You took it for granted, and didn't think That your one true love was on the brink Of getting out, of backing off; Love finally broke and wandered off. The person who loved you disappeared; No one to love you sure felt weird. But don't fear, for this is true: There is a love quite near to you. All you have to do is look and see; Someone to love you; there they'll be. Someone to pick you up when you're down. Someone to form a smile from a frown. Someone to talk to when you're alone, Someone to come and share your home. The home in your heart is empty, But I know there will always be: Someone To Love You

Winter Thoughts Emotions deep inside raging like fire, Each one bringing out a different desire Confusing the senses and clouding the mind Mixing together like water and fire Summer winds clear the head, easing memories Unwanted thoughts wiped away with the sun Then Winter comes, bringing a relapse of pain Those thoughts return, you've got nowhere to run Your mind is confused, you don't know what's real Ribbons of thoughts fill dreaming shores Time stands still; you face your fears one more time Pushing the evil away to hide in the darkness once more You're free for another year, till the Winter returns And your fears come back to even the score...

Dark Forces Black as night, the dark forces gather, Melting through the shadows of my mind. Clouds of evil, undescribeable things; Entities that are born from nightmares forgotten. Cold eyes gaze through the void, Searching for a weakness on which to impose their wrath. These destructive forces slowly grow stronger; Their eyes penetrating my very being. As the Barriers slowly melt away, The monsters advance in masses. My mind then breaks, crumbling into a jumbled mess, And I Smile, For these evil things remind me... They remind me of who I am supposed to be...

THE ULTIMATE HIGH Crouched in the darkness, waiting to strike: A silent form black as the night. His twisted grin ande bloodshot eyes Define his lust for the ultimate high. An innocent man with nothing to fear, Is slowly, unknowingly wandering near. His bloody demise is coming soon, For the vampire's eyes glow with the moon. He strikes with speed and absolute grace His fangs in the neck and blood on his face. Finally filled, he's back on his feet; The man's blood steams from the heat. The vampire screams and takes to the sky, For now he has found the ultimate high.